|xanga is stupid. why do i still write in it? i am lame. maybe this
could be my last entry for awhile.... or atleast until we get home from
bermuda. we're leaving in 30 days, and i could not be more excited.
school hasn't been so bad. the weeks have been flying by. i can't wait
for april, it will be by far the best month... set your goals, camping,
easter/break from school, six flags, bermuda. i mean really. i need a
new cell phone. mine is all chipped and broken and the camera's all
fucked up. i decided that having a boyfriend would be pretty good right
now, i don't know why... it's just something that i think i could use,
i don't even know what a real relationship is like anymore, which is
lame. i've been running on my treadmill every morning, which makes me
feel awesome for the rest of the day, it really wakes me up, which is
definitely a good thing. i wanna do something with my hair. i
definitely need a hair cut, but i want something done with the color
too. i was almost thinking red and blonde streaks. but who knows? i
doubt i'll actually do that, even though i kinda wish i would for
something different. i've been having the 40 year old virgin for a sub
a lot lately. and it is really ridiculous how much he looks like the 40
year old virgin. in homeroom, some kid was like "is your first name
andy?" and i felt bad kinda, because that sucks. and then some other
kid like, laughing was like "HAHAHHAA IS YOUR LAST NAME 40 YEAR OLD
VIRGIN HAHAAHHAHAHAHA" i mean, it's funny that he looks like him, but
you don't have to be a dick about it. i wish i was going to see saves
the day tonight, that would be tight. i have a social studies test
tomorrow, which blows. because i am no good at that class. except i
have been lately. which is sweet, because i need a b in that class. i'm
hoping to be back on the honor roll this marking period. which is over
wednesday, by the way. like i said, the weeks have been flying by. i
need more money. i'm getting paid tomorrow, but i have to save it for
my cruise. which is fine, but like, i need money to get shit for
the cruise. i have to stop thinking about this damn cruise. i will lose
concentration and fail my test tomorrow. hahahah. oh man. i don't know
what else to even write. so i think i'm either gonna go take a nap, or
play piano. bye!|
|another awesome weekend, but with one tragic twist: rest in peace
Silas, always in our hearts, and never forgotten. i don't understand
why that kinda shit has to happen, just remember: it's not goodbye,
just "see you later". watch over us, we all miss you so much.|
so john took me to see fall out boy, and i must say that it was
probably my absolute favorite show i have ever been to. it truely was
awesome, and i had the time of my life. so everyone can shut up about
the black listed show! just kidding, i wish they weren't on the same
day, because i totally woudla gone to that. and st. patty's day was a
success, with a lovely bon fire, because it really wasn't too cold,
because that's what the fire's for. so this weekend is the cover show,
which sounds like a lot of fun... and saturday a bangarang show. i wish
i had more money, but i should be working some this week, hopefully
bringing in some good tips. the real world's on tonight, and it's all
about svetlana [sp? ha, obviously] being single. i guess that's
interesting... she's just gonna do that one guy. i bet no one even
cares, because i am probably the only loser who watches that. yesterday
was the first day of spring, which is awesome. because i am totally
ready for that 80 degree weather to arrive. and testing this week
totally blows... i really do not like taking tests and then sitting in
a silent room for like, 8932 hours. it's a good thing we're allowed to
use our ipods. i hope i do good on these tests, i do not feel like
dealing with remedial courses or whatever. seniors have it sooo easy
this week. that's cool.
apparently i have to break my entries up into paragraphs, so i'll start
doing that, even though none of them will make sense that way. oh well!
i tried. i didn't have work today because the weather was shitty,
that's cool. i don't know how much i felt like working, even though i
missed it sunday. [sorry ryan!] hmm. and i wonder why my pay check
sucks? hah, no i don't. i know why it sucks.
umm. that is all, thanks.
|what a weekend. it made me think of summer more than anything else, i
mean, i was outside more than i was inside i think. well, that might
have been an exaggeration. but you get my point. i took a walk today
too, it was so nice out. and i thought about a lot of things, and i
have really changed a lot since i was in like, middle school. even
since just last year. but i guess that happens to everyone. i realized
the other day that i don't really give a lot of music a chance, except
what i listen to. so i'm thinking i need to get a ridiculous amount of
songs, and just listen to them. i don't know how to explain it. i
haven't been working enough lately. i really like better than ezra. i
don't care if you think they're gay, i am a REALLY big fan. i watched
kids this weekend, and it made me realize how like, fucked up some kids
are. i mean, damn... if i ever met anyone like telly or casper or
whatevz, i would probably kick them in the weiner, or like rip it off
so they couldn't rape little 12 year olds anymore. that shit's gross.
but it actually had a pretty good like, point to it i guess. anyway.
i'm seeing fall out boy this weekend, and it's all i talk to john about
at this point. but he's excited too, even if he is gonna miss the
warriors and black listed. haha, he'll live. and i'll take him to one
of their shows when they're around next. because i am just that nice.
and maybe i can drive by then. haha yeah ok. i've been doing my
homework on time and shit lately, because my dad told me that if i
don't do all of it, and like, he hears about it, he'll push back my
license a month everytime i miss one assignment. so i'm like FUCK THAT.
i need my license more than anything right now. and i really miss my
cousins. i'm picturing a family reunion asap, and it should just be a
big party, because i am not waiting until chincoteague for shit like
that. even though that will be fresh off the yowzabibble since hana's
gonna have her license. in 47 days i am going to be on a cruise to
bermuda. and you all are going to miss me like hell, and if you're not,
i mean, i honestly don't care because i will be on a cruise to bermuda.
enough said. i could put money on the fact that half the people who see
this won't read it. i don't think anyone read my last one, and i doubt
that this one wil be that long. hahha, i just like, realized i said
"fresh off the yowzabibble" i haven't said that for almost 4 years. i'm
totally gonna bring that back, and everyone is totally gonna make fun
of me for it. oh well. i really suck at saving money. as soon as i get
like, $10, it's gone the next freaking day. i might be getting a new
computer soon, but i doubt it, because i don't think my dad really
wants to buy me one, but that would be really nice because i'm really
sick of this one [and sharing one with my mom]. and i still really want
the slvr, i think that if i pay $100 for it, so would my dad. because
that phone is ridiculously tight. i really don't like money. like, it
really bothers me how it controls like, basically who a person is. that
just sucks. i mean, really... it is so ridiculously easy to "make it"
these days... actually no. i honestly don't really know, it might be,
it might not be. but like, homeless people kinda suck. my dad went to a
community college, and he is one of the most successful people i know.
[not to like, brag or anything, but seriously]. i'm getting a
ridiculous amount of college mail again. i got an entire packet
from west chester, which is kinda cool, because i've been considering
going there. but i don't think my dad wants me to go there, but it's my
choice. and it's close. so i'll see how i like the campus or whatevz
when we go check some shit out. |
i don't think i have much else to say.
why are my entries getting long.
kinda weird, because basically all of that. says/means nothing. hahah
sucks if you read it kinda, but thanks anyways! i appreciate it.
|i have had a hard week... dealing with stupid bull shit everyday gets
old. between boys, school, and straight up stupid shit, i am sick of
it. i really wish i could go to a different school sometimes, which
could help me get away from this shit. i want to meet new people too, i
am seriously up for just meeting someone, and finding them interesting,
and hanging out all the time. that would be super tight, but it just
won't happen, atleast not any time soon. ryan's going to lansdale
catholic, and i am ridiculously jealous. but he's just meet some super
cute boys, and introduce me to them [if he doesn't, i'll kick him in
the weiner ] hahaha just kidding! but seriously. i just want to meet
boys that aren't stupid, like the ones from pennridge. so i have work
today, which is good. because our cell phone contract is coming to an
end in about a month, meaning i can probably get the slvr i've been
dying to have. if i pay for half of it anyway. unless my dad doesn't
make me, which is a possibility. he'll pay for a cell phone, but not a
better education. ANYWAY. i went to amanda's dad's house this weekend,
which is always a good time. we saw her car yesterday, and it's nice. i
love how real driving is becoming. even though i still don't get my
permit until freaking may... but you know. so bermuda is getting sooner
and sooner, which makes it seem like, farther away. which is weird.
because i have seriously been counting down since it was like 100 days,
and now it's only 55 or something like that, and that sounds so far.
like, 100, was like oh yeah! 3 and a half months! now it's like oh
yeah! almost 2 months! and it's just gay. i don't know how to explain
it. next weekend is a bangarang show, which is good, because i like
them. [obviously]. and after that i'm probably partying with kyle...
because we made a deal that we would kinda. and saturday morning
i have a damn cheerleading competition. but after this week
cheerleading is over, which is kinda sad really. i mean, i know i
really haven't been dedicated enough this year, but most of the time, i
really was busy, and just couldn't make it. and i know half the girls
on the team hate me, but what can ya do? so enough about that! come to
the competition if you want! it's at st joe's university. actually,
don't come. it's embarassing [not like anyone was planning on it
anyway]. i wish that it was still like, snowboarding season. i mean, i
guess i could still go. but i wish it was an all year type of thing,
because i love it. i guess i could go to like, the alps in europe
somewhere. because it's probably cold there till like june. but that is
a ridiculous amount of money, i'm sure. so i'm not even really talking
about anything, but this is giving me something to do instead of my
physics homework, which is a good thing. haha, seriously the only thing
i'm getting out of physics this year is a trip to six flags. and i
could go anyway, ya know? but it should be cool. i put myself in a
group with hana & andy s. because well, i don't know? i like them i
guess. haha i hope that they're cool with it. that would suck if they
were like "fuck her". hahahaha. but it's 4 to a group, so we need one
more. any takers? so some people are seeing bayside today, and i'm
really jealous. but i'm seeing fall out boy and from first to last next
week, which should be equally as fun, i suppose. [or, i hope so].
there's deer outside. there's always deer outside. ya know what's
REALLY dumb? squirrels. i mean, let's be serious. they straight up run
out in front of your car, sit there, and don't know which way to go. so
you have to SLAM on the breaks, and like, stop just so you don't hit
the little dumbass. don't get me wrong, if i ever hit one, i'd stop and
cry for like 89324 hours. my brother's home. i wish that we randomly
got off in march for a week. that'd be pretty nice. apparently my
grandmother, pop-pop, and uncle are coming over tonight. SWEET, MORE
MONEY. ahhahah i'm horrible. but seriously. i <3 money, because i
actually have some now. i <3 having a job... and i <3 that i
don't have to buy my own car, because that is ridiculously convenient.
because i really suck at saving money, even like $100 i suck at saving.
it would take me like 10 years to save up for a car. haha, no joke. i
am definitely going to the mall next week... hopefully i can get some
sweet stuff for like, bermuda or something. i love how we always call
it "bermuda" we never say "the cruise" when honestly, we'll be on the
boat about 5 times longer than we'll be in bermuda. but it's all good,
because either way i'm gonna have the time of my life. i feel like i've
been losing a lot of friends lately. i mean, i guess i deserve it or
whatever, but i wanna make up for that, and i guess that's why i wanna
meet more people, and all. or maybe just hang out with some people i
only talk to in school, ya know? i hate that. talk to people in school
like you're best friends, but never even consider hanging out. IF I
TALK TO YOU IN SCHOOL, LET'S HANG OUT. seriously. or anyone, anyone
that would really hang out let's do it. i would put up my cell number,
but i'm paranoid out of my mind. no one would call it anyway.|
so i think i'm done, and i have to leave for work in about a half hour. [not that that really matters ?]
so yeah. PEACE.
|so this was an interesting weekend.|
the show friday got ridiculous at the end, and i blame myself for that.
i apologize mostly to tony, i was freaking out on him way too much, and
i feel really bad about it. all in all, it was a good show. and i think
it was pretty worthwhile to have. i hope taylor, elisa, and steve
have good birthdays! and i still love you amanda, shit happens. my dad
likes passion. that's cool?
i had saturday morning detention, along with a few of my good friends.
it sucked. first detention i've ever had, i'm a loser. i felt like
shit. i think i had strept throat [probably not though, because i do
not feel half as bad as i did]. so i slept most the day after that,
what an exciting day?...and i didn't go to work, so i apologize to ryan
& tim, and whoever else was in that day. then i went to my
mom-mom's house up in the poconos, that was tight. i love it there. it
snowed and everything, i feel like i finally experienced winter. then
me and my mom went snowboarding today at camelback, it was awesome. the
conditions were perfect, and i've never been there before. we did some
pretty good runs, i think. i enjoyed myself a lot.
so i have came to the conclusion, that boys lie, like it's their job.
or atleast the ones that i'm interested in. i am not sure how i can
trust them anymore. everything seems to be going good, until they
break a promise. an important one too, not something really
dumb. it's whatever. i'll deal with it. so i really don't even
know what my 'boy situation' is looking like right now.
all i know is. 2 of my favorite people [? haha sure] got kicked out of
school friday, and i am going to miss them a lot. but they're dumb, but
i love them anyway.
i've been contemplating quitting xanga, i don't know. i mean, everytime
i check it, i have no more comments, and have lost a subscription. sure
that's gay, but i mean, that's basically the point of xanga. i might
just stick with myspace. but i do like to write these gay blog things,
because i'm a fag. and i don't do that on myspace. but if we're not
friends on myspace, ADD ME.
i don't want to go to school tomorrow. you know march is the only month
we don't have ANY days off? i think i mentioned that in my last post,
the one i got 3 comments on. hahahaha i'll shut up.